Had a dream I was reborn as a man
As the title says, I had a dream where I died and started living my next life as a man. Thinking about it just makes me want to die. There's absolutely no way for me to be a man in my current life, I'm ridiculously short (every stranger thinks I'm a kid), curvy and extremely fembrained. I feel like I want to be a man instead of feeling like a "male in a female body". I know transitioning would just make me feel worse and I would feel like I'm pretending to be someone I am not. I hate the idea of having a "trans body" but being a real man has been my dream since I was 13 and I know it will never come true. I wanted to get on HRT but realized it won't help me and will only make me hate myself more. It would be like chasing my dreams but never fully reaching them. I yearn being a boy I can never be.