32F
Recently, I hit a new low of 55 pounds weight loss. I am grateful I got to this point, but I still feel weird in my skin.
It was just recently that I bought some clothes that fit me. I dont know how to feel because I have been wearing baggy clothes for a while, but I had enough of the loose fitting clothes. Like TMI but my pants were getting into places they shouldn't go.
It's like I feel weird in loose fitting clothes and I feel weird in clothes that fit me. I look in the mirror and don't really see changes day to day. I do take weekly photos and measure myself. But it's like my body does not comprehend the changes most of the time.
I don't know if I will feel normal in my body. I was so used to being bigger and most of the time my clothes fit me. I had the same clothes for most of my adult life and sure I bought some pieces here and there. But my wardrobe never really changed, honestly.
So there is definitely a shock that I might have to buy more new clothes. I still have 90+ pounds to be at a healthier weight for my height. I am loathing going to the store. I hate trying on new clothes, even in this new smaller body.
It's so weird seeing my new body shape, and I honestly don't know how to dress myself. I want to actually have a wardrobe that makes me feel confident, and I want to look cute but because I am going to continually lose weight, I feel like it is going to be a while for me to feel like that.
I honestly don't know if I will feel normal in my own skin. It's quite an experience being a bigger person most of my life and now having to cope with changes I didn't expect from weight loss.