Dysphoria as a teen is killing me.
I’ve been trans for around 4-3 years as a teen and never really suffered too much from dysphoria when I was younger, I cared more about presenting male and passing then my body itself, now my own body has turned my life into a living hell.
I can’t even bare to look at my chest and body without feeling this impending doom and just pure dread. I feel such seething and unbearable envy and almost anger towards cis guys, I don’t understand why I couldn’t been born like them, why I couldn’t have a voice and body like theirs. I feel so sick looking in the mirror and how I don’t quite look quite right like they do.
I just want to be a normal guy, I don’t want to suffer like this anymore. I need help and advice on how the hell I handle this, how to deal with dysphoria until I get on T. I just really really need help I feel like I’m losing my mind.