I’ll try to make this as short as I possibly can.
I’m currently 19 years old. I turn 20 in a couple months and a while ago when I was 15 I realized that I wasted my teen years. This is because I struggled to make friends I actually liked, i was overweight, I had no haircut I had nothing.
However in my senior year I did end up getting two girls that liked me but due to me being an introverted overanxious person I ghosted one and friendzoned the other (17-18)
Looking earlier into my teen year around 13-14) I was heavily bullied. A guy who would consistently take my stuff and literally pass it around the room would constantly make fun of me everyday. I hated my life. Then when I was 15 I met a guy in PE in sophomore year who bullied me relentlessly. He broke me down completely and consistently tried to get into fights with me.
I ended up getting embarassing videos of me getting recorded by him uploaded onto instagram. I could go on and on about the bullying but if I had to pick a highlight it would be one that was indirectly aimed at me.
I had a ”friend“ who told me to get on the game with them and whilst on vc he sends me a video on instagram and it was a video of me getting my ass handed to me and then told me to watch it with the volume on so he can hear my reaction whilst he laughs the whole time.
Fastforward. 18 years old I go to college I make two great friends and we hit it off, I basically became a new person, new haircut, new clothes, new physique.
After the first semester of the class we met in we never met again... I am so miserable. It was a 3 person friend group and now we all lost touch. It sucked so badly losing these people that were basically my bedrock and now I have nothing.
Only things I have going for me now are my grades, job, and car. Nothing else really
If you made it this far i’m surprised. Thanks for reading… or not reading. I just wanted to post something