I have to share this with you and ask what to do next?!
I am (M57). Although I look youthful and I maintain my body in the gym. Otherwise, I am a civil engineer and a war veteran, a member of a special forces unit. I was in the war for 4 years as a Croatian volunteer. Her body is 80% covered in tattoos.
I have been a widower for 4 years.
I am in a relationship with a very young (F34) and attractive woman whom I met in the gym. By the way, we live in Sweden.
She is a freelance IT engineer and works from home a lot. I once asked her why me, and she said that since her teenage years she has always had relationships with much older men. She says that older men are more accustomed to female pleasure and the act of sex itself lasts much longer than with peers who switch to PlayStation after sex.
She is intellectually very strong and has a broad general education and it is not boring with her at all. Our income is very stable and significantly above average. The sex is top-notch and always passionate and intense. She has strong orgasms, and since I can last a long time, she has three to my one.
Situation 1:
I'm not proud of this at all, but it happened completely by accident. I came home from work one afternoon tired, it had been a really hard day, I took a headache pill and fell asleep. She stayed in the living room with her laptop. Nothing unusual because she often works on maintaining banking systems. But after an hour I woke up and felt the urge to pee. As I came out of the bedroom, I saw that she had headphones on, and a porn movie was playing on her laptop. And it was a woman in a threesome with two older gentlemen. She didn't notice me because she was watching intently and fondling her breasts. I didn't ask her anything about it. I realized that she had a fetish.
Forgive me for this long novel, but everything written is important.
Situation 2:
I went to work as usual and usually get home between 4:30 and 5:00 PM, depending on the traffic. But yesterday I went to work without my ID06, the ID card I use to pass through security guards at a construction site. I have a break at work from 12:00 to 13:00, and around 11:00 I had a business meeting that was 10 minutes away from our apartment. And after the meeting I decided to stop by to get my ID06 card.
I enter the apartment and hear a lot of female moaning and sexual pleasure. At first I thought the guy was watching porn. I stood at the entrance to the room and she was having sex with two men and they were just giving her DP.
They didn't notice me because of the loud moaning and pleasure. I watched their sex for almost half an hour and she really enjoyed it.
I got hard and I stripped completely naked. She was in doggy style and once she gave an oral sex while the other guy fucked her from behind.
I slowly approached with my finger on my mouth and told the guy who was fucking her to slowly move away and I continued instead. Since my piece is a bit specific, I think it's thicker and 18 cm, she felt the change and turned around. She was visibly surprised and stiffened, and I continued to fuck her hard and I came inside her. I politely told the guys to leave, and I got dressed and went to work.
When I got back from work, she started crying and asked for forgiveness. I hugged her and said, we'll talk later. She had drunk a bottle of wine by evening and was visibly drunk. She quickly sobered up.
This morning I kissed her before going to work and we still haven't talked about it. I have to admit that my feelings are divided. The scene was exciting for me and it created a fetish in me. On the other hand, I'm not comfortable and my ego is hurt.
What should I do?