Facing hardship in the most crucial time of my life
Just found out i got played or led on last night in the midst of final exam season but that is okay i react to it positively. I look it from another angle.
I am grateful because I see it as a training for me to handle hardships during crucial moment in my life, which allows me to be mentally resilient.
I am grateful because it allows me to be more careful when I date someone next time. I am not going to blame her for all the mess because how she behaves is not within my control. What is within my control is how I handle it and I have made the right decision to stop talking to her because I have to protect my own peace, dignity and focus on the important stuff like exams, because she does not decide the next few years of my life but this exam does.
Another reason why I am grateful is because I found this out sooner. Because further down the line, things are going to be tough.
Realistically speaking, as a normal human being, it hurts, in fact I can't stop thinking of her. It's okay because we human being has a unique characteristic, which is the ability to possess emotions. But what I can control is how I handle this. It is hard for me because there were conflict between my desires and my logic, especially in the midst of exam season. In the end, the latter wins.
That's all. One day I'll be able to meet someone who truly appreciates me and would be their priority.
5/14/2026 - 4 days before my first paper
Iskandar Puteri, Johor, Malaysia