u/Future_Complex847

Now please understand that I know persistence is integral! But I will say I think that there has to be a moment in which I could be understanding of a manifestation no longer serving me or my interests. Especially in the context of manifesting an SP.

Ex. my SP has a crush on someone else (in the 3d ofc, not necessarily my reality) and it's only become more apparent with their recent activity in spite of my own persistence. I can always persist and even in the course of their relationship possibly progress through it, but I feel very exhausted and it makes me spiteful and even more envious than I would be before. It starts to feel like I can definitely manifest events of physical affection and intimacy, but less so of that specific person. Granted, no one truly has free will, but if they're so infatuated by someone else then wouldn't it obviously counteract my own robotic affirmations and visualization?

I'm wondering about this question both in the context of my own situation but also as a general question

Saturday I think I manifested my first time. I said to myself that today is beautiful the moment I woke up before getting ready to go out with friends. I had been trying to manifest my crush to be my partner, but that night it wasn't with my crush or a partner and it was completely out of character for me. Though, I will say I was incredibly nervous the whole time and extremely sensitive, that being in character. Just a very shocking happening that I don't regret. It was genuinely magical, but it did motivate me to focus on myself much much more in terms of self-concept. I just know that there were was moments of that night that I definitely scripted and visualized for my sp, and the person at hand had a lot of similar features to my sp. So,,, can you??

I would say, personally, when I think of having a long term goal in my life, I don't imagine something grandious. Instead my emphasis is more on smaller things in my opinion like "one day, I may want to start a book club, so that I can get people interested in political theory I like" or "I'd like to go hike in Appalachians one day and maybe get in touch with the rural community because that's important to me" or even just "I want a girlfriend" I think if I had to imagine a holistic life goal it would stunt my own growth, but if I had to pick one it'd be "to be happy" despite many people who try to tell me otherwise, I think it is a realistic goal. I think a year back I would've said "to find truth" because I wanted to have something of a guiding force for when I was stepping into adulthood and since I was really young wanted to be super smart so that I could be successful and even help others in their journey. I imagined myself in celebrity styled interviews and being praised in youtube videos for being such an intelligent young man. My perspective on this now is that its a flawed thought, smartness and intelligence are extremely arbitrary qualities, and while I think I should pursue it, I find that other goals have taken higher precedence in my mind like the ones I mentioned before. I am getting into bodybuilding and while my goal isn't to look like Ronnie Coleman with a body fat percentage of 2%, I want to look good to say the least. I think this is healthy. I was considering myself to be a 6 or a 1 even due to a lot of my emphasis on justice, justice based on my political ideology, but noticed that I also always have seemingly contradictory qualities which make the entire experience of enneagram immensely difficult for me - I feel at many times I am broken, but as of now that's the old me.
It's important to me now that I focus on those goals because of how stressful it was to try and fit this culturally imposed idea of success, and once I rejected it for the sake of my mental health - even though I was self-deprecating and called myself a bum the entire time - I felt better than I had in the past six months.
I say all this because I've been needing help navigate this.

Asking as someone who is stuck between both types, particularly the social variants of both. What's your experience with type 1s?