so tired of being different
navigating the world’s always been really difficult for me I have a mix of things “going on with me” but in short, making friends/ connecting with people that are similar to me/ even just interacting with others, learning, the way I present myself, my interests and just how I live my day to day life is so different from what ive observed in other people and it bothers me to no end. Im not sure how to explain this portion but its like everything i try in life fails while other people flourish and thrive theres so many instances i can provide examples but this frustrates me to no end. I don’t necessarily want to be like everyone else either but its so draining knowing i’m always being perceived as if im an alien idek lol, everything is a challenge for me while everyone else has no trouble and i just want to be normal sometimes. As a result of this I dont have many friends and after sooooooooiooo many attempts at reaching out, the isolation is really getting to me im so freaking depressed i dont feel like trying anymore
(also apologies for any grammar mistakes or confusion on how i typed this out i’m just upset and need to get all this out loll)