i relapsed last night, and i feel kinda shitty, but oh well.
I'm laying in bed and still havent gotten up, when I get up, i'm going to go to the bathroom, clean up, and wear short sleeves. ive given up hiding it, im tired of it.
i dont care what they say
I kin my OC, Stud. Stud was an OC/ Sona i made so I can make my yume work. I yumeship with Infected from regretevator. A few days ago I kinfirmed Lampert from regretevator.
I dont know how to explain but Lampert isnt happy. He has a past with Infected, and I think Stud being in a relationship with him is messing things up. Everytime something Stud x Infected happens, as Lampert, I feel sad almost. This is a hard thing for me because I cant just remove a kin, and i also cant just stop the yumeship.
idk if I explained this well, but I really need to talk about it.
my kins:
Lampert from roblox game, Regretevator (doubles DNI, mediamates welcome!)
Craig Manning from Degrassi next gen (doubles ok, hoping to find mediamates though! i havent found any at all)
Stud (OC)
Nothing Kasper related please. I'm trying to move on. -Lampert
kinda weird kinning him considering his personality is so different compared to my other kins, so this one i cant really explain.
also even weirder that I yumeship myself/sona/ one of my kins with his ex-friend
this has been on my mind for a while now actually
i realize i forgot Stud (sona)'s tail :C
really happy with Infected's hair ^w^
i used a base on pinterest for ref, but poster didnt credit the artist and i dont think it was theirs to post :/
my F/O goes by the name Infected now, and sona's name is Stud
Infected love to game, is a bit awkward and everyone sees him as a scene kid (though i just label him as "alt" and leave it at that) and he has an unknown illness (thats why we call him Infected!) the name he went by before he got sick was Kasper but i dont think i want a ship name with Kasper, Infected doesnt like that name very much (besides i never knew him as "Kasper")
Stud is loud and likes to party. He is closer to the grunge style, and he is also a demon from hell! i'm still worrking on his lore so i dont have much to share, but if you want to, ask questions if you think it will help!
hopefully some ideas will pop up
ive considered "Infestud" (like "infested") but idk if it fits
(sry idk what flair to use >.<)
Craig Manning from Degrassi: The Next Generation. this has been a kinsider for a while, and then became a kinfirm a week or so ago and this is my first time admitting it here!
i also imagine my F/O and his friend there
I'll go first. I have a HC that he puts ketchup on everything. it grosses me out sometimes, but it's an adorable habit he has
cuz that means they like what I like meaning I get a change to fanboy with them abt my special interest in not just the character but the media they come from, and i have so much fun when someone else talks abt something i like, i love listening to them
if you also yume Infected from Regretevator and okay with me also yumeshipping him, PLEASE interact i would love to hear you yap abt them and yap abt the game in general. or if you yume with another NPC from the game, i would love to hear abt it!
i wish little me knew i would end up addicted, i wish i knew these would never leave. I wish i knew these cuts would need daily care (due to my skin condition. even after healed, i will still need to care for them.). No one told me i would be scared to do something as little as wear my favorite shirt, or go swimming with my friends. ive been having panic attacks over a dress.
I wish i knew how it would traumatize my sister, or effect my mother, and i sure wish i knew it would trigger my dad's ptsd. no one told me these things, i thought i was finding an escape, a way out of my situation. self harm is a lie. i hate myself for believing it. I finally threw out my blades. I'm finally going to actually try to stop. im done with this bullshit, it ruined me, my body, and mental health more than i thought it would. with that, i'm done.
I quit.
I started watching this show and season 2 introduces this character and first sight i thought he could be a possible kin despite only seeing 2 episodes with him. and then my mother told me something about this character that just made me wanna kin him more, but i dont wanna kin him because idk what happens to him and how he might change later in the show.
this really sucks cuz I already feel too connected to this character, and i just wanna know if anyone else struggles with this and how to deal with it
collected all my blades and they are all just in a pile staring at me. i dont wanna quit, but i should. im tired of this.
edit: still cant get myself to toss them out. . having 2nd thoughts
what title says, ask me questions, I'm very open! ^w^
keep in mind im new to this, please correct me if I'm wrong abt anything!
(edited spelling)
I'm Lyn, but you can call my by the names of either my kins. I kin Panty Anarchy from Panty & Stocking, and I also kin my OC, Stud (OCkin). I mainly have Stud as the dominant kin (i think that's a good way to say it? I mainly relate to him more than Panty, Panty is for my "episodes" that comes with my diagnosis) I use He/She (He preferred). If anyone has questions about me, or who I kin lmk, I'm very open and willing to answer ^^
Keep in mind, I'm new to this stuff, so some of my knowledge might be wrong, so please correct me if i am! I will also have my user flair put as the one I relate to most in the moment
i think i accidentally started kinning my OC recently, and i wanna learn more abt this before i know for sure what this means for me ^w^