u/Future-Decision-27

(Tw drugs, dysmorphia) Hey. Tbh idrk what i'm looking for posting here. I'm in the early stages of realizing i'm a woman, and lately my depression has been getting really intense. Happened around the same time. Got my addictions kicking back in as well. Atm i just spend my time crying while high wishing i was less tall, or that i had a higher pitched voice, or idk what else, making up extreme solutions that would require hurting myself. Now i do know being a woman isn’t about a pitch or how tall you are, but it makes it hard to accept that i have to live in constant challenge of the norms and that if i do transition i'll never have the privilege of being seen how i'd like. Does the dysmorphia get any better? Trans people who don’t "have a passing" (english isn’t my first language sorry if that’s incorrect or disrespectful) how did you accept it? I mean i do know i owe no one feminity but it also feels like it would be the key to my problems so atp i don’t really know. And i also do know 3 months into the whole thought process is probably too early to wonder this but heh my brain is just doing it...So sorry if that’s a common topic.