How did you know you had PPD and what did you do? Were you on meds? What was your experience on them, any side effects?
I have been feeling miserable since last week and I don’t know what to do. My baby is 9 weeks, and she’s extremely fussy. Her wake windows are torture bc all she does is cry and yell at the top of her lungs to where she turns red.
It has definitely brought a strain between my marriage and I honestly don’t know what to do.
I feel bad telling my husband how I feel bc I wanted this, he didn’t. Now that I’m in it I’m miserable!
Of course I love her, when I see her i think of how much she needs me.
But all I do is cry while holding her, and think of how much she needs from me and I can barely give. I’m always exhausted, in a bad mood or angry and I just can’t deal with myself. I recently realized that I hardly smile at her.. not bc I don’t want to but bc I’m in survival mode all the time. When my baby cries non stop for 30-60 min I’m beyond myself and just want to leave her alone and walk away. I don’t bc I feel really guilty if I do.. the most I’ve left her was about 2 min to make a bottle and that causes an argument between my husband and I. I feel that he thinks I’m not a fit mother, and he has some resentment towards me for having the baby.
I thought it would’ve been a nice experience to have and see someone grow. I was a PK teacher for 8 years and loved the age! I always wondered what it would’ve been like to have a baby. Now, I’m second guessing what I did.. and it makes me feel like crap that that thought even crosses my mind.