Choices
I had an abortion when I was 20 because I simply wasn’t emotionally, mentally, or financially prepared to have a child. It was before 8 weeks, and I made the decision using pills.
Now, almost 6 years later, I met my husband and I’m experiencing a completely different pregnancy. I’m almost 21 weeks pregnant, this baby is very wanted and deeply loved, and we’re very happy.
But sometimes I think about my past and I get a strange feeling. Not exactly guilt, because I understand why I made that decision and I know that at that time I neither could nor wanted to become a mother. It’s more like a mix of emotions that’s hard to explain.
I wonder if other women who had an abortion and later had a wanted pregnancy have felt something similar. Does it eventually fully go away?