Feeling bad out of nothing
Hey guys, first of all I'm not a native speaker so forgive my ugly english. I started suddenly feeling bad without knowing why, the intensity isn't always the same but what it is the same is how sudden it is and the lack of a reason.
I'm not a person who lacks purpose or feels a deeply grief but this have been bothering me for a couple of months and I don't know what to do about it. I have always written about my feelings and I think I tend to have a pretty good understanding of them. I also enjoy feeling them deeply, I'm not afraid of that or anything. But this hits different, there doesn't seem to be anything to understand, nothing to get out of how I feel, but in a way it drains me because I can't get over it. How am I supposed to heal something I don't even know what it is?
I, of course have things that makes me feel sad but when I'm feeling bad I'm not thinking about them and trying to figure out if those are the things that are making me feel that way feel like triggering a feeling that wasn't that bad in the begining. Besides, I've been in way worse situations mentaly and this wasn't there.
Am I trying to cover it without even noticing it? Could it be something I am not even awared of?
Sometimes I think about looking for therapy but I feel it's something so silly to waste my time in (my feeling, not therapy itself), after all, I feel mostly happy with my life, the people who I'm surronded by and all but when I feel to talk about it with someone I often feel that they don't really get it (they don't invalidate it at all but they really don't understand). In the moment could not feel silly at all, not because the emotion itself feels heavy but the lack of reasons and the amount of times I feel it during a week or month.
Then it goes away, life continues as naything has happened, but I know it did.
Has anybody feel this way before? Am I alone in this one?