Hello, My wife of 16 years just passed away 2 months ago. I have a 13 year old special needs son that is doing amazingly well. However, I am the one going through really serious grief, which has turned into depression and anxiety as well.
Month 1, I was really sad but still felt like I could be strong. Month 2, I’ve fallen off a cliff and I feel the weakest I’ve ever felt in my life. I cry everyday and think of my wife 24 hours a day. I lost the most amazing person I’ve ever known and I’m having a very difficult time being a functional dad/human being. I’m going to therapy, seeing a doctor, taking meds, but I feel like I’m only getting worse. Everyone says that I need to stay strong for my son, which I already know. It’s just easier said than done.
I tried Wellbutrin 150mg for 3 weeks and all it did was give me insomnia. I’m already an open wound, then add no sleep to the equation and it makes an already bad problem much worse. I stopped taking it 2 days ago but it’s still in my system so I still can’t sleep.
Any advice on what to do or tips for navigating this?
Is there a medicine that actually works?
Has anyone tried Spravato?
I need to function. I have to take care of my son, my job and myself. My wife went through 15 months of cancer treatment before passing and I was able to do all of these things, plus care for her. Now that she’s gone, my heart and brain are both so broken that the basic day to day functioning is impossible. I can’t imagine feeling this way everyday for the unforeseen future.