Going through it
This is my first pregnancy and honestly since the beginning it has been very difficult. I was sick for a while out of work for a month and so, def progressing and getting better thankfully but mentally I feel drained. I feel physically drained. all I want to do is cry. I always just feel so lonely. Yes I have family and friends but sometimes they understand and sometimes they don’t. I have an amazing spouse, who is always asking and checking up on me, making sure I’m okay and I’m attended to, making sure that I have and get the things i need to ensure I am okay. He does everything in his power and I do try to open up but I don’t want it to be a burden. I just have this sense of loneliness and sometimes if people were to ask me what is it that I’m feeling? I wouldn’t be able to explain which I think stems from always having a hard time speaking about my feelings. Feeling this vulnerable and weak just plays with my mind and it sucks. My family has one another because they live near each other and sometimes I miss out on things, my spouse is on vacation and ofc I don’t mind it but I balled my life out without him being aware since he left. I didn’t even feel comfortable but I couldn’t get myself to speak up. Like everyone around me is just going about life without feeling alone and I can’t stand this feeling to the point where I don’t want to do things and I just feel like being alone which doesn’t help the situation at all. I’m very aware pregnancy heightens everything but I feel helpless. What do you think this is? Is this normal?