Context: together a little under 2 years. When he is great, he is great. When he isn't, he is a monster.
He has been "at large" for days now, with escalating harassing behaviour begging for me to "not let this be how it ends" and trying to convinve me to come be with him. He is a violent alcoholic whose biggest trigger is accountability.
The police are actively looking for him now and I can't sleep in fear he is going to show up.