u/Fun_Management_2320

I live two lives. One in my dreams and one in daylight. Funny as it sounds, I feel I have lost touch with reality long back.

I try hard to feel real but I find no way out. I think I have exhausted all my options, tried all spritual things, knocked all the doors with hints I had. Now all I have is delusional me thinking how to pass each day.

Wish you never came into my life. Wish I had never seen that gaze. Wish I have my normal life back, as simple as it feel I understood the worth of it only after missing it.

Day by day it's getting hard. Wish you give me a peaceful sleep atleast for a day. Is it my karma? Am I that bad god?

Why do you let me live in hell. Atleast give me a dignified death God, let me sleep peacefully in your feet.

I cannot work on assumptions anymore. I need a solid theory or atleast an confirmation that it's not my mental disorder. Please say you hear me too. Please say that I'm not delusional. Only then I or we can work on a solution.