I haven’t spoken to my ex-partner in probably 3 months now. I’m comfortable saying that there was emotional abuse, but I am constantly second guessing myself when it comes to the physical aspect. I think it’s because he found it funny to hurt me. Whenever I would make a joke he thought was dumb or say something silly he’d pinch me so hard I’d cry and bruise badly. Sometimes it was tickling/jabbing my ribs so hard I’d have finger shaped bruises. I’m also petrified of saliva, so he found it funny to pin me down and threaten to spit in my mouth. He would do this until I cried and he’d promise to never do it again, but he never stopped. I did tell him to please listen when I say something hurts, but it would always happen again. It got to the point where I’d laugh it off, because he’d always call me a “pussy” or tell me that my pain tolerance is low and that I bruise easily, so it never felt like a big deal. I just ended up agreeing with him. In retrospect, this behaviour is not okay, but I have a hard time telling myself it was physical abuse, because he’d always laugh it off. There are more similar incidents, but these are the ones that stick out to me.
I’m not really sure why I’m writing this to be honest. Has anyone else had a similar experience?