For context, I’m the kind of person who NEVER watches a movie more than once.
But there’s one exception. There’s a film I’ve been watching for years whenever I feel bad and need comfort.
I thought it was just a coincidence, that I watched this film because it was soft and light…
I used to tell everyone it was my favorite movie, my “comfort” movie.
But yesterday, completely by chance, I found out the release date of that film: 2006.
And then I had a “flash,” the kind EMDR brings up so well.
Suddenly, I realized… 2006… the year my father attempted suicide…
The police and firefighters had to intervene. It was a very traumatic event for me (I was 11).
I started watching this film after his suicide attempt, and then I kept watching it for 20 years every time I was triggered, without even realizing it…
It’s so crazy to become aware of this.
Even after several years of EMDR, I’m still shocked by these realizations…
The brain is fascinating!!
(Sorry if there are any mistakes in the English, I used a translator)