u/Fun-Name-5925

I've been struggling for a few months and losing the will to keep going.

I don't know what to do anymore, I'm attempting to remain normal - but underneath I'm losing it and it's showing.

I'm in my head 24/7.

The fact that this entire disorder is an entire challenge to overcome, I just can't bear it. More importantly, I don't think I want to - I want to honestly be left alone to die and there'll be no worries ever again.