Why am i like this and why i always suffer(18m)
sO MY Final sems are going on of 2nd semester and like the first year is almost a hell for me and maybe im an ASSWHOLE so like in first sems 4 months were good in 5th month our group had a fight i had join the college with my gf which we eventually broke up and like in start of 2nd sem and i always like being a punching bag and shit always cuz im to frank with others i had a lot of anxiety now and idk what to do also people are shifting flats but i have no one to shift with cuz i have 0 friends now which i relay on i have noticed i talk to much also and on 27th may my end sems gonna end and idk what to i always feeles a 2nd option never feel good about myself my physique is shit I socialize a lot but idk i never able to become a part of group and something always alone and i have only 1.5yr in college and also im going back on 27 for my internship of 2 months i genuinely need help what to so i cant bear it bro staying alone i feel like crying ik im also not a good person much but its just idk what to do about it please guide me I don't wanna ruine my 1.5yr here cuz i live in another city and be happy as possible and happenings also