It has been quite long since I felt good emotionally, but only the issue is reflecting the same in personality. So, during the day and with people, i am full of energy as if life is great and when i sit alone by myself, flashback of numbers of things ( missed opportunities, heartbreaks, failure, rejections, time wasted on people who once was part of me) run like series of events.
I guess life happened, and i feel like i am behind in most scenarios that people think that i didn't even try without knowing the whole story that will go with me in grave.
Anyway, that's how it feels. This picture clearly reflects the consistent internal emotional battles. I think it is peaceful this way because as soon as i start to open up, unexpected turns take back everything in reverse.
Sometimes,it'ss hard to explain.