Hi! Im 14FtM (soon 15) and im wondering if its possible for me to be aroace or if im just a late bloomer. Id say ive gone through a lot of puberty, ive had my period for 4 years etc. Ive only had one crush ever and that was when i was 10, and ive always felt behind on love, even as a kid because i never had a boyfriend or anything and i was never interested in love. Ive been in 2 relationships this far but i just feel "trapped" and kind of grossed out even if theyre so nice to me. I just get uncomfortable when someone shows romantic affection to me and when im expected to do the same.
Someone kissed me yesterday and i genuinely felt so grossed out i started doubting if i ever even found guys attractive. And when i think about it i honestly dont really think so but ive never really been attracted to women either. I have thought about being aroace before but i brushed it off as being too young to know and i probably still am but it feels different now, i feel almost repulsed at the thought of being with someone else.