Cant stop zina (on phone)
Guys, I did many posts, but I’m really starting to think I can’t be a Muslim if it goes on like this anymore. I seriously think sometimes: what’s even the point of being Muslim, but not practicing it anyway?
I can’t stop sinning and chatting with girls. It doesn’t seem to get better. I don’t cry like back then anymore. I became numb — m*sturbating and always chatting with girls. It’s ruining my life, and I’m not even motivated for life.
I don’t know what kind of job I want, don’t know my strengths, I’m just lost in life and wandering aimlessly like a soulless body. And to be honest, the way I’m calling myself a Muslim almost feels like mocking Allah, and I think I’m kinda doomed for Jahannam.
I’m 20 years old, no ambition, no nothing. Can’t get married — no one would want a guy like me, obviously. I need to be a good person for that. However, I can’t become a good person since I chat with girls every 3–4 days and repeat.
I know we are bound to sin, but I can’t bear zina anymore. It’s tiring and draining my soul and imaan out of me so much that I even think of leaving Islam.
Note: leaving islam wont make me happy or free but i cant bear this life anymore i need serious helo and i feel left alone fro allah since i oray for years