I don't know quite how to start this, but I'll give it a shot because I have to start somewhere.
I have some very specific kinks. these kinds are not inherently harmful or immoral, but I've always been extremely specific about them, and I've been this way since I remember sexual arousal. To give you an idea of how specific my desires are, I comb clips4sale to maybe stumble across something that excited me from a specific set of creators. If I'm lucky, once every month or so months someone will post a video that excites me that I will buy. ... and the part where I
Because of, my lovely, beautiful and perfect wife, I want to not quite pray the kink away, but I am definitely interested in trying to live and like her sexual attractions, I think about it as, I want to make the sec that filles her cup to also fill mine.
Right now I'm being so wrenched,, before the nights out I go and sneak a fap on my pornography every Sunday night because of how shirty Monday is going to be. This putts me further into the camps of 'faps withouth his wife' ,,,
Anyway I'm looking for suggestions, anecdotes, that might help me go from experiencing my sexual needs from my hyper myopic , limited view, and expand it a bit so I can bring my sexual self closer to my wife.