I am scared of love. Is it normal?
Hey y'all,
As the title says, I am scared of love. I think I always had it, but the stories that I saw on the internet made it much worse. I know that these stories are a loud minority, but I can't help it. What if I somehow get into a relationship and I end up like these stories? I know well that it is not like that in most cases, but I can't help it.
I wish to experience love at least once, but my "paranoia" (if I can call it that) is like a psychological wall that I can't cross. I could try to go in a social setting, but since I live in the middle of nowhere and the nearest big city is about 45 minutes away (traffic included) and I already got a part-time job and "college" (that is not the actual name, but I won't give the exact name to not dox myself since it is regional), its hard to go out.
I know this is not an easy question, but what can I do to help myself with this fear? I don't know if this can help with the question, but I am 19M, straight, and shy by nature, so I have issues talking to strangers for any reasons (especially women). I feel like I can just do whatever with dudes since I guess it's easier to interact with the same gender.
Thank you in advance!