u/Fruitloops_Soggy

Pls don’t be harsh to me. I’m just mad at myself that I made horrible choices. It’s been a year since we got married, but we’ve been together for 7yrs already and never in my whole life with him have thought of cheating. Not looking, not flirting, nada, because I love him and all. Until one guy started messaging me, and he was just different because he makes me feel alive again(like giddy). Well my plan is just to meet up for a cup of coffee but yea, it went the wrong way. Was only one time and we never chat anymore. I found it he has a gf back home and it actually hurts me knowing that maybe because how stupid I am to do such things to my husband. I wanted to tell him so badly. I can’t properly sleep at night because of this guilt that I’m feeling right now. And at the same time I don’t wanna lose him. He is such a wonderful guy, and loving, but if I tell him what happened, I don’t know if he’s still going to forgive me. 🥺 I tried to make myself busy throughout the day just to not to think about what I did. I know can’t take it back for what had happened but if only I could, I would do it.

P.s. I’m still waiting for my therapy schedule.

I’m married for a year and I don’t know how to tell him or encourage to seek a doctor for a check up. His breath when he woke up in the morning is pretty bad. I don’t know. If the sinus is the cause, or what because I’ve noticed him he sometimes spit or swallow. It may not that a big phlegm but I saw it sticking in the sink and ofc I got to clean it with water. It’s hard to get intimate when he got a bad breath like phlegm.
Which doctor should we visit? I tried research and google suggest dentist first otherwise medical doc.