hi
as the title says, I reported my abuse and, expecting to be brushed off and ignored and seen as crazy or put through months of silence and waiting, I was met with a lot of urgency from the police that I wasn't expecting. even my therapist agrees that how fast things have been going isn't entirely commonplace.
for context: i was trafficked/sexually abused from infancy to around my teen years when I moved out and also became capable of fighting back. over the years ive been slowly uncovering repressed memories by looking through old hospital records, CPS records, even police reports. Anything with concrete, unbiased, outsider information since I don't trust my family and I don't fully trust my own mind.
i made a report to cybertip because a year ago, while searching for this stuff, i came across several suspicious polaroids of myself as a child, one of which could be classified as CSAM. this report was made in late february, cybertip responded immediately and i had a small team to talk to while they contacted local police.
then, in early/mid march i had an interview with a detective, who confirmed there's an active investigation with multiple investigators both in my area and other parts of canada. the detective was nice, but kept making strange facial expressions when I'd say some things. I was listing off names of other kids I remember being abused alongside, and the detective stopped me on one of the names and asked me questions about her. I could just be overthinking it.
that also scared me because im really worried these memories are real. i know they probably are, i wouldn't be so scared of them if they weren't, but it's still weird and feels so disconnected from my current reality that my brain can't wrap my head around the fact that I was being exploited and the sexual abuse wasn't actually a one time thing.
i was given a police appointed legal advocate a couple days after the interview with the detective to help me with understanding what's going on and help give me updates on my case and any resources I'll need. She also helps remind me about upcoming interviews with police, and will talk to the detective for me if I have any questions.
im really thankful for the help I'm getting currently, and things are luckily slowing down just a little now. It was just really stressful, and it still is really stressful not knowing what's going on and why.
My main question is: Is this urgency normal? does this mean they're taking it seriously? does this mean what I'm remembering is probably real?