Okay so I 17m go to a small boarding school and i broke up with my ex gf (now 18f) back i January. A lot happened after that especially because it was a very toxic relationship. I was regularly banged against walls and once thrown through a door.
Well after i broke up with her things were quiet. Suddenly everything took a turn and my friends began reaching like “hey i heard these things and it doesn’t sound like you at all”. I was accused of being abusive and a cheater. And many other things but those were the big ones. She also told people that i was the reason she wanted to khs.
And as you can guess all this really took a tow on my mental health and triggered some trauma related paranoia. I barely left my room for months.
We are about to hit graduation soon and my school has a tradition that all the students are gathered in a circle (abt 50 people) and either hug or handshake each other goodbye.
I have absolutely no intention of hugging my ex. Even giving her a handshake is throwing me off.
My friends think it’s a dick move and tells me it’s only cuz i’m holding a grudge.
But she ruined me for so long. I lost so many friends. How am i supposed to just forget that?
Also she’s not the only one i wont be hugging, i’m autistic and not much for physical contact overall except for a few friends.
Am i really the a hole in this?
Tl;dr Broke up with toxic girlfriend and now i refuse to hug her at graduation.