Never been in a relationship and now as an adult im scared
Yes, sure I do feel like I want to be with someone when I happen to like them (which i do now), but since I've never been in a relationship, when they give me a sign that they might actually be interested and and I feel like something is going to happen between us, I am literally so scared. It's so new and what if Im too far in and it turns out I never even liked that person? If I think this way maybe I dont even like them enough and its just a fling? Im scared that being in a relationship will somehow make me feel trapped though idk why or how would that happen. I totally would feel okay if it didn't have a label "relationship", I have had very close friendships before where we felt very comfortable with I guess "couple" stuff like holding hands, overall touch, changing infront of each other etc. I guess the label might terrify me a little. It has come to a point where I wouldnt really mind never being in a relationship at all. I've never experienced it, Im doing good, and serious dating or anything like that is seriously out of my comfort zone.
I would not say Im avoidant, but I am a HUGE overthinker.