I’m a 2023 batch student. This vent isn’t just about some “cringey infatuation.”
It’s been three years since I joined college. I’ve known this girl since semester one, but I started liking her in second year. We had a lot of classes together, and we became good friends. Now that I’ve left college (didn’t want to take the shitty placement they offered), I don’t know if not confessing was the right decision.
She’s very introverted and closed off, and I strongly feel the feelings weren’t mutual. I didn’t want to ruin what we had especially since I don’t have many close friends anyway.
Do I regret not confessing? Yes.
But more than that, I regret how much of a coward I was I couldn’t even express my feelings to the first girl I ever liked.
When I first came to college, I was extremely introverted. Slowly, I started socializing more. I had a blast. All I wanted was that when I left, people would at least recognize me maybe not by name, but by face or by my work. And I think I achieved that.
Honestly, if first year me saw my third year self, he wouldn’t believe it.
But still… I feel like I could’ve done more. If only I was more confident. If only I wasn’t so shy about grabbing opportunities.
I was always ashamed of how I looked, how I spoke, what I did.
Now, looking back at these three years, I realize I shouldn’t have cared so much. I should’ve just taken every opportunity I got.
I still talk shit about college, but let me say this try to enjoy it as much as you can. Say yes to plans. Go out. These moments aren’t coming back.
Yeah, college can be shitty. That doesn’t mean you punish yourself.
These are your last years as “just students.” After this, you’re just another jobless entity trying to figure life out.
So don’t live your college life like an NPC. Make it worth something.