[27F/35F] partner just decided to call it quits because the distance was too much, don't know where to go from here, I don't want to give up
Me(27f) and my now I guess ex(35f) had been dating since mid March. Talking since early February. She stays an hour and a half away and I don't drive(though that was something I was actively working on remedying). I came down sick with something pretty nasty a couple weeks ago and wasn't around much to talk. She had reassured me things were okay and that I didn't need to worry.
Fast forward a little, it feels like we're talking less, and her responses felt less emotionally involved, more distant. I chalked it up to a rough patch, she was working a lot and suffering with a lot of body image issues. I missed out on seeing her two separate days on account of me being so sick and her not being able to afford to get sick and miss work and I'm just left kicking myself. That if I hadn't gotten sick and been able to see her she'd still be here.
Idk, I ended up bringing it up, how things have been hard lately and it feels like we're distant and I wanted to make sure things were okay. Then she ends up telling me she thinks we should break up, that she doesn't see a future where we can keep this up without it tearing both of us apart. I don't want to challenge her and question her decision making because I respect her and what she thinks so much but I can't help but feel like this was just a rough patch and something we could have gotten past together.
I'm really sad and broken up about it and every bone in my body wants to beg her to stay, to try to convince her that it's worth fighting for and it'll be okay but it all feels so hopeless. I don't know what to do. It's hard to imagine going on without her. She was very much my other half and I'd hurt over being apart from her constantly, I guess I just thought it was worth that pain in the long run and it's hurting that it doesn't seem like she felt the same way. Even if at the end of the day I just want her to be happy with or without me. We parted amicably but my world feels shattered and I don't know where to go from here. Just feel like she could have been the one if it weren't for the distance tearing her apart from me.
Any words of wisdom, advice, or kind words are very much appreciated