I'm At a Point where I think even a 1st class kid is better than me. This may be long, but I'm giving you a full story that will make you think about how a person can be this loser.
"MY ENGLISH IS NOT GOOD."
In my school, I'm a kid who is ignored, knows some people after studying for many years but students who came just 1 year 2 year ago are more popular than me and nose more students than me and let me tell you one more thing that even if I know someone in my school for example if I know 10 people, only 2 or 3 of them will respect me or treat me equal to them otherwise no one cares. I try to do many things but still fail to make people know me and respect may or even treat me equally to them. They make fun of me.
I love playing football, I play Football above average almost better than most of the students but still the problem comes. Whenever I play football with student what happened is that they always pass the ball to someone who is literally just shouting randomly and even if he is playing shit even then they will pass to him where as even if I am shouting they will not pass even if I did 3 goes and the person who is playing shit did zero goals. In short, they ignore me. Also students of lower class then play better football than me I have practiced football every single day but still I can't beat them, I know I'll be better, I'll never quit, but it still hurts to see how others get better than me faster and with low efforts.
I had a gf around 2 yrs ago, we broke but after sometime. Now A student of my class who know her for only about 1 week is trying to impress her. And I see that she is also interested in him. I WONDER WHAT I DON'T KNOW OR WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME THAT I CAN'T DO WHAT OTHERS CAN DO.
Even a Nerd who is a structure of skeleton, only studies and just studies is now more popular, better and respected than me. IM THE ONE WHO LEARNED MARTIAL ARTS WITHOUT A TEACHER FROM YOUTUBE,
I'M THE ONE WHO PLAYS FOOTBALL ALONE ON TERRACE AND STILL MANAGE TO BEAT THE STUDENTS WHO PLAY FOOTBALL WITH OTHERS EVERYDAY ON A GROUND. I have a decent physique and i do workout everyday for years, A physique that is respected by students in our school, but not in my case. A guy will Shit physique is respected but not me.
THE STORY IS REVERSED IN MY TUTION, I'M A GOOD POPULAR AND RESPECT GUY IN MY TUTION, BECAUSE AT TUTION THEIR ARE ONLY AROUND 20 STUDENTS, SO IT WAS EASY. I TALK TO EVERY GIRL, THEY ALSO INTERESTED IN ME. BUT WHAT I THINK IS THAT, "WHAT IF THE POPULAR GUY OF MY SCHOOL CAME IN THIS TUTION AND TOOK MY PLACE, EVERYONE WILL LITERALLY BECOME HIS KID, LITERALLY DESTROY MY RESPECT AND PLACE".
THERE WAS A VIDEO THAT A SAW WHERE A CHAD COMES TO HELP THE PERSON WHO IS LIKE ME. HEY ANY CHAD, HERE I'M TO ASK FOR HELP AFTER YEARS OF TRYING ALONE, FEEDING MY EGO THAT I CAN DO THIS, BUT FAILED. I'M EXHAUSTED OF ALL THIS.