u/Free-Jaguar-4084

This title pretty much explains this situation, and I will start this topic off by saying that I'm generally an introvert and usually not a chill person unlike what most people think of me. Whenever my sister starts a fight, repeatedly gives me lessons (in a bad way), or rubs things in my face for at least 20 minutes up to an hour, I get really angry and will sometimes challenge my sister to start yelling at me, hold a grudge against me for a very long time when she usually doesn't, or even try to attack me. This happens like every few days and I'm so tired of having to deal with this so often. And I get to the point where I feel like she will only talk to me just to start a fight, give me lessons, or rub the same things in my face rather than actually talking about anything that she or I really want to talk about. That thing makes me angry, and I get stressed out easily and hold grudges against that type of situation for a long period of time, sometimes for the rest of that day or even longer. It's only been happening recently and I've never had this happen constantly before. And my parents usually don't do such a thing like that to me that often. Also, I'm glad that my mom acts like a proper therapist whenever I end up in this situation and whenever my mom is not too busy.

If it's on the nights I have to college homework and my sister starts a fight with me, repeatedly gives me lessons, or rubs things in my face for at least 20 minutes up to an hour, I tend to hold a grudge and end up wasting more time needing to finish my homework, especially when it's due on that night. Whenever I have to finish homework due on that night, I just completely end up losing my ability to focus on my homework assignments, forgetting what I was explicitly going to write, and feeling more stressed out and overwhelmed to the point where I start acting furious, making raging noises, and thinking that I will get the worst possible grade if I don't finish it by tonight. Very common for my English composition assignments as English composition is generally not my thing from college. And a few times, not all the time, I even end up thinking of banging my desk, smacking my laptop keyboard, or even throwing soft things onto the floor out of anger.