u/Free-Friendship9554

It's been a year since we first got to know each other, a mutual friend introduced us. We become close mostly because the mutual friend went offline- tbh, even now I don't even know whether I regret that.
All I know is that it hurt so much when you chose to villianise me when I felt I couldn't continue the friendship anymore due to you unable to understand that I needed time to grieve something personal- me just needing to take one week off for myself, was for you a personal insult when I had already been talking to you everyday for months. I was your only friend, but you were unable to see I had other friends and priorities other than you.
Even till this day I'm unable to process the hurt you inflicted on me due to you playing the victim- I really don't know why you have to be so angry all the time, I really wish things were different and that you could see that I was probably one of the best friends you have had in your life.
I really wish I could have met you irl like I was thinking to, I really wish I could have seen you get married like the dream I had.
I really wish you did not have to slander me and tarnish the memories we shared, I really wish that you could just grieve and let it go, for then we could have had a second chance in rekindling the friendship.
It really sucks to see you self-destruct yourself when your life has enough pain in it already- you need to be able to process the anger and sadness inside you, you can't go on like this and expect to make a close friend when you hate people just because you are unable to see your suffering is your own choice.
I loved you like a sister, but I realised I can't go on like this. If loving you meant I was hurting myself by allowing you to sit there and get angry at me because I was unable to do things your way... then I'm sorry, but I need to leave.
It was fun while it lasted, please take good care of yourself, and please, just stop taking your anger on people who care about you.
There is always something in your life worth living for even if you can't see it, don't hate your life.
I tried my best, and now I want to let go.
I felt bad already at having to leave you while you didn't understand what happened, please don't make me feel guilty anymore.

I'm sorry we had to end like this, but I'm not responsible for your suffering in refusing to see you also played a part in our friendship breakup.
Let it go, my ex-friend.
We all need to let go of something in order to grow.

Back when I was in junior high school, I had a clubmate/friend who was quiet and very introverted, she didn't really have friends other than our friend group, consisting of us four girls. Everything was fine in the beginning, I don't even remember exactly when things started going downhill. Eventually she started displaying alarming behaviour- breaking a pencil with one hand in front of me, asking the other two girls whether I had talked about her to them (I didn't), being paranoid whether she did something wrong because I was talking to her as happily as the other two girls, writing alarming notes, holding a carving knife we use in art club around her, etc.

It was all very disturbing, and I finally had enough and tried to leave the friendship. However, that didn't work out, as all of a sudden she stopped her "behaviour" and suddenly became cheerful, and started copying my habits. Everything was just very traumatic for me, as no one seem to understand how it was affecting me.

I only managed to escape after graduation, as we went to different high schools. She still tried to hang out with me but I couldn't take her anymore- she was leaving voicemails telling me to pick up the phone and even saying things like she will come find me when I wasn't able to answer her calls due to my own share of hardships in high school.

I tried for years to understand why it happened, and finally recently I managed to tell a friend who told me she most likely has BPD. It gave me some closure, after all this years. I hope to heal from it one day