u/FrankieluvzEma

Friends and family say I have to move forward for my daughter, and that I'm stronger than I know I am, I wanna scream bullshit I get my strength from the love I had received my wife and the love I receive from my daughter, but I'm sitting on a very thin line. I have to move forward? Can't I just sit and collect myself first? I had to return to work and entrust someone else other than my wife to care for my daughter while I'm at work and it fuckin sucks, my daughter has level 3 autism, doesn't communicate other than using her hands to direct you to where she wants to go or what she wants. I trusted my wife and only my wife now I have to trust my mom and sister in-law, and although family, no one loves and understands my daughter like me and my wife. Pleasure has almost completely disappeared from any activity. People look ugly. Food tastes like shit. Music is just noise now. The only thing that hasn't lost its beauty is my daughters laughter, her smile and affection. Other than thay , sorry for my language throughout this, but fuck everything. Does anyone feel the same? Does the world ever brighten up for more than just a few moments? Does anyone have any tools that would help? Should I seek company or am I damned to sit in silence?