u/FrakePlazagger

I’m a mercenary trying to help the empire fight against the outer kingdoms (they are outnumbered real bad)

My small party of 180 can’t besiege anything without a 1200 man army coming to defend, so I’ve been trying to coax my allies to help. But they will make an army, march around aimlessly, and disband before engaging in a single battle. Meanwhile the enemy is taking fief after fief, and I’m trying (and failing) to defend it on my own

Started dipping 7 years ago, started zyns 6 years ago. Anywhere between 120-150mg a day.

I read about the first 3 days are the worst - okay, I’m halfway through, I can get through it.

I get motivated by terrible cardio, and resetting my dopamine system.
However, I see posts about people that quit several months before that say it is just as difficult to stay off now as it was then.

I don’t know if I want to go without thinking straight for months. A few days, okay. I’m at work, not accomplishing much of anything because I’m constantly thinking of zyn, and still covered with a heavy fog. If it’s like this 2 months from now, no shot I’m done with zyn.