TW: SA
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I havent told anyone this
I think My younger sister SA’d me when we were kids and i have never told anyone and im scared to.
I don’t really know what to call this and I feel weird even posting it.
When I was around 13/14, my younger sister (10/11 at the time) crossed boundaries with me in ways that made me freeze up and feel really uncomfortable. Around the same time, I was also dealing with being r@ped by my older sisters boyfriend (24 at the time) , so my memories and feelings about everything are messy and confusing.
Part of me keeps thinking maybe I imagined it or that it “doesn’t count” because we were both kids, but it still affects me now. She’s often really mean to me these days and I think it brings a lot of those feelings back up.
I don’t really know what I’m looking for by posting this. I think I just needed to finally say it somewhere because I’ve kept it inside for years. And maybe get some reassurance and advice