I'm not gonna write anything explicit, but for the context, I was watching an episode of the sopranos, usually I never get triggered with basically anything. But there was this scene. That was horribly, horribly, horribly fucking well depicted, so much that it made now very anxious. Like a lot, it felt like I knew that I had to stop watching, but I couldn't, and now I'm feeling like shit, I feel paranoid, it took me so much by surprise it reminded about my fears. I fear it's gonna happen, i fear how impactful it is and I fear that how in so little time my life was scarred forever.
I don't know what to do, fuck I wish I had something to dissipate my fear with. I even remember the scene of the show and I replay it in my head, just like with my real trauma.
Aside from well writing this I don't know how to feel or what to do. Any help or advice?? I haven't felt like this in a long time and I definitely haven't re lived so hard an experience. I feel so shitty :(