u/Fractured-Th0ughts

I am like rip your skin off agitated and restless, I want to start some art projects but I want to work in pastels and I don’t currently own them I’m going to buy a set but they won’t come until Wednesday ugh I’m so agitated that I’ve got urges to SH. My meds are just some random clusterfuck rn (I see my psych on Thursday) anyway I’ve gotten sidetracked does anyone know how to cope with this agitation. I’m pretty sure I’m not manic or depressed (was previously in an episode but the lamotrigine has helped) but unless I chill tf out I won’t sleep tonight which will not be ideal not that I really want to sleep I want to create some god damn art

I have type 1 and get psychotic symptoms in mania mixed episodes and recently depression. Lithium stops my mania and have recently titrated up on lamotrigine which has helped my depression immensely I currently take 5mg olanzapine and 25mg aripiprazole (I don’t think it works for me) yesterday I felt low and started to experience extreme paranoia but today I’m fine again. Was it just an off day, breakthrough symptoms begging or what I’m so confused does anyone experience anything similar?