u/Foxtastic_Semmel

Dunno if my body looks fem but atleast i got some decent boob growth :3.

All in all I still feel extremly dysphoric about my face, FFS soon... hopefully.

Pizza and blunt for hrt day :3

Final post on my first grow.

The yield was amazing, close to 2lb running 720W.

Pretty happy with the results altough I overdried the buds slightly.

Cure with boveda bags will hopefully fix it.

Spend 20k euros on FFS, I got a pretty good deal for a board certified FFS surgeon, got full FFS Brow bone, forehead, eyebrows, chin, jawline, lip lift, undereyelid surgery and I still get genderd male by default by everyone.

At my workplace, people realy didnt notice or say anything post surgery, I only have to go in-office like once a month and I took a 3 month break from that post surgery, I didnt tell them what surgery I got just that I had some form of jaw surgery to explain the abscence.

Cant afford therapy now, contacted every therapist that is covered by my insurance but there are non that I would trust with gender dysphoria and body dysmorphia related issues.

Am paying 250 a month for the loan and its what I would need for 2 therapy sessions a month.

TW:SH\SI

>!I started cutting again because I lost hope, had a suicide attempt in december because I lost hope and I seriously cant hope for the future to bring any good for my situation the way its shaping up to be right now.!<

>!Legit my only hope left is that if I make it another 2-3 decades till we have some cyberpunk esc tech where I can just get an artifical face lol.!<