Addicted to binging chocolate :(
Hello everybody,
I’ve been addicted to chocolate all my life. Since my childhood I had problems with eating too much chocolate to the point that my parents used to hide chocolate from me all around the house and in the basement just so I wouldn’t eat it. I would ALWAYS find it and eat until I was sick. My dad also loved chocolate and that’s why they always bought it and hid it from me, but eventually they caved in bc I would start crying and at some point they had just given up.
I am now 25 and things are the same, I would say even worse bc I live alone and earn adult money so I buy all kind of crap. 🥲 Everytime I go to the grocery store I say to myself: “don’t buy chocolate, if you don’t buy it then you won’t eat it, simple as that!” And then after lunch or dinner I’m craving a sweet snack and start going feral bc I don’t have anything. I live in a village so I have to drive 10mins to the nearest gas station to buy chocolate that’s 10x more expensive than store bough. And unfortunately I do go to the gas station every single time…….
To make things even worse, I’m an active gym goer and have no problem eating protein and gettin my workouts in, but I didn’t see any actual progress in the past couple of years bc I eat a lot of sugar and no fruits and veggies at all. I’m like a fucking kid living in a body of an adult woman. I’ve had a pretty shitty couple of years and I always use that as an excuse to “treat myself”, but it’s one thing treating yourself and another eating something until you feel physically sick. I literally cannot stop eating it until I want to puke. I’ve tried the thing with not buying, with buying only a little but when I get the taste of it I just want more and then we’re back to the gas station, I’ve tried going cold turkey and it just makes me cranky and sad all the time. I literally feel physically and emotionally addicted to sugar.
So what I’m trying to say is I don’t want to live like this anymore and I want to at try to live a healthier life. All the advice is appreciated, nothing is too unhinged, at this point I’ll try anything. 🌸