Don't really know anything about gardening but trying to clear up the area around the block of flats I live in. These weeds keep returning and some are growing in between the building itself and the pavements. The worst have obviously been here a while and are sort of little trees with very tough branches i cant really deal with. What kind of weed killer do I need?
I broke up with my girlfriend almost a year ago, and since then ive had no relationship of any kind. No dates, no one night stands, nothing beyond a conversation. I'm beginning to realise how difficult dating actually is in the UK.
I had this stupid idea that because I was in my thirties now, things would be different, id be more confident etc. but it is the same horror show it's always been and I'm terrified. I'm not really much more confident, I think my self esteem is low. I live in a rural area, so not much going on or people to meet. Friends are all married and /or with kids or moved away. I dont really have many friends outside of this. I'm pretty boring, dont drink alcohol which marks me out as weird in social situations. The stuff I'm interested in is pretty boring too and doesn't make for decent conversation on a date I dont think. I suppose I'm kind of dull. Dating in the UK seems, to me at least, to involve going out and get absolutely smashed out of your head on drink and drugs and then somehow cop off with someone you meet somehow during the course of an evening. This is not something I'm interested in, I doubt I could do it, even though I feel like i want to sometimes.
I'm older now, I look ok I think and I'm trying to get back into a bit better shape but honestly I get no interest from women at all. They dont even look at me. I downloaded tinder, which was a stupid idea, and found i get basically no matches, apart from foreign women in different countries and the whole thing smells of some kind of scam. The only girl who was close to me and seemed like a conceivable option turned out to be an escort! A couple of girls at work i thought might be interested but I wasnt sure and getting involved with colleagues is generally seen as a no go. Another thing ive noticed is I find a girl attractive, then realise she is probably 22 years old or something, and if I tried anything id be seen as a creep. I'm horny as hell as a result of all this and watching a lot of porn which is bad too.
I dont have any ex wives or kids, my job is ok and pays ok and I own my own home (with a mortgage of course). I think i dress well and I'm trying to get fitter. These are the positives I suppose.
Don't even know what I'm doing writing this, perhaps just looking for someone to say it's going to be ok. Advice would be appreciated.