I gained weight and I don’t know what to do
Hey, I’m a 16W and have always had body issues growing up. I’ve been on the chubbier side but never super fat. The end of freshman year of high school I started doing track and lost a little weight. Then I eventually began counting my calories (don’t entirely remember when- probably closer to beginning of sophomore year) and was eating around 1600 a day. Even when track season started again sophomore year I was still doing this so I lost some weight.
Summer of sophomore year I was still internally counting and combined with running longer distances, I don’t think I was eating enough at all. Once cross country started fall of junior year I decided to start eating how much I wanted. I had a really hard time doing this and every night I would end up having to go and get a late night snack because I was still hungry from not eating enough during the day.
I gained a little bit of weight during that and it really messed me up. I went back to super strict counting (1688) while on my running break and got skinny again. I stopped counting around February of this year. But i have actually gained so much weight, (118 lbs to 137lbs) and I think I’m fatter than I was in my chubby era.
The reason for this is because I am constantly hungry. Right after I eat I get these stomach pains that aren’t exactly the feeling of being starving but they only subside if I eat something. I eat pretty healthy- I avoid seed oils and that kind of stuff, eat tons of veggies and fruit, and focus on protein and fiber. Recently I’ve been more lenient, eating things like sun chips even though they have sunflower oil. But I’ve been dealing with these hungers for so long- I can literally eat a massive bowl of pasta and 10 minutes later eat a whole bag of sun chips or yogurt with granola or just like a lot of food and then again I can eat more.
I don’t know how I used to eat so little and hardly feel hungry. I was constantly thinking about food though, but wouldn’t let myself have it.
I have been running a lot, too, and even though I took a two week break recently I still have been feeling like this. I have been comparing my body to my old body and I just look so fat and I don’t know what to do. I told myself I wouldn’t try losing weight until college (so that I can fuel myself enough while I’m still growing) but I think I’m overeating anyway and I don’t know how to eat right.
I really need help on how to eat- currently I eat so so much and I know I’m in a surplus but I want to stop eating more than my body needs.
I hope these hungers can go away because it’s really hard to see myself gain weight, I don’t like looking at myself in my camera because my face has gained a lot of fat.
Anyone know why my stomach is like this and what I can do? Thank you.