u/ForwardOption5463

I don't feel like a real person; every day I just pretend to be someone else, trying on masks. But at the same time, I'm absolutely certain none of this is real. It's like I'm playing a ridiculous, boring game or something. Coupled with this is anhedonia; even music and food bring me little pleasure, and I've never been able to get enough sleep. I would be happy to remain in a dream forever, completely alone in my world. Reality is disappointing. I have a persistent feeling that there's a rotting corpse inside me that I'm trying in vain to hide. And although I've succeeded so far, I don't know what to do next.