I don't know if I am an ungrateful child or if something is wrong with my parents.
So I am an only child. My parents do not force any dream on me, buy me almost anything I want. We are middle class but they still prefer for me to have the best possible option when it comes to necessities. But the thing is, they can never appreciate me, verbally at least. I've never once heard them saying something nice about me to guests or relatives. Instead they always make sure to slide in body shaming or deragoratry remarks about me as a joke when talking to someone. If another parent does complain, mine jump in like "Oh our daughter is worse" all as joke. If I rant, they justify the opposite party. I've never seen them defend me in any situation. If another relative body shames me, they double down or laugh.
My mom is weird. She buys me any snack I want, even offers to buy a few she knows I like. Then once it's in my mouth, the body shaming starts. She is always annoyed by whatever I do. She wants me to do something, I do it, she will manage to pass a complaint about it. Like if I wash the dishes, what she says is "You use too much water."
Also, my mom used to hit me when I was younger, the typical asian mom shit. But she can still use curse words at me occasionally. Have been since I was a child. It hurts more now that I am 20. I feel like crying every time she opens her mouth.