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My toddler (2y4m old) has always been an exceptionally good and independent sleeper. He had the occasional sleep regression once or twice a year that lasted a few days, maybe a week and that’s it. I’ve always solved those by being close to him, mostly bringing him to bed with me until he would fall asleep and then transferring him later. My husband was working a lot abroad so often it was just me and I was basically dealing with it just by following my instinct. This always worked, falling asleep with me never became a “bad” habit: as soon as his regression passed (because he was developmentally ready I guess) he would go back to his independent sleep routine. He now has been having a horrible bedtime disruption since a few days resulting in crazy tantrums and us struggling every night trying for hours to make him sleep. We have a 3 month-old baby as well now so it’s been extra complicated, although we are both home on parental leave. Tonight my toddler had an even crazier tantrum than usual and, after trying everything we could for 2 hours (go back in every 5 min, give him extra milk, cuddle him in our bed, cuddle him on the armchair in his room, change sleeping bag with a lighter one, change diaper….) my husband said we should let him cry it out. So i went to wait in our bedroom while he was crying in his room. After a long time of him screaming for us inconsolably (half an hour? I honestly don’t know, it felt like ages to me) I finally told my husband fuck it, I’m going in. I took him and brought him to our bed where he fell asleep in 5 minutes, and my husband then transferred him back to his bed. When he was on the bed with me, he had lost his voice from all the screaming and was looking emotionally drained. I feel like a horrible person for having done that to him. I hate myself for having caved in to some stupid boomer theory that treats children like animals to be trained for our convenience. I’m never going to do that to him again, but right now I feel like I’m dying inside. Also, I’m exausted and still suffering the post-partum/breastfeeding hormones and I feel like this crushed me. End of rant 😢