u/Formyself97

I thought I had great self concept I am extremely confident

But SC is DEEPER and beyond confidence or thinking you’re the prize. IT IS SELF SUFFICIENCY.

I have realized in the last 3 years I have not remained single or emotionally detached for long.

I never truly healed I just carried it from person to person.

I spent about a year trying to manifest an ex and then let him go in March 2025 and went straight into another relationship.

I battled with anxieties regarding communication in that one that I had carried unhealed from the last one.

After the second relationship ended in Sep.. I spent about 5 weeks focused on me and then I manifested another one.

Word for word out of my affirmations and visualisations

When he left the country in Dec 2025… i struggled a lot with long distance communication…

I tried detaching and 4 weeks later I accidentally manifested another old crush

That was good for 2 weeks before I faced the same long distance communication related issues and anxieties

After I finally detached from both of them… 3 days later I got a new old friend talking about marriage with me

Two weeks later… communication issues came .. I have commitment and no communication lmfao

AND THEN I REALIZED…

It’s for the best.. I had spent reliving my same issues with the last 5 people

It’s all centered on long distance communication.

I decided to not care about the thing.

Why am I soo desperately looking for it??? I need to stick with my routine, my sanctuary, myself and not chase after anyone’s messages.

So I am finally done occupying that needy lack state.

I am now INDIFFERENT.

End state is fulfilment. It is self sufficiency. That was the lesson all along.

This whole year I struggled with extremely similar issues with 3 DIFFERENT PEOPLE.

IT IS TRYING TO TEACH ME A LESSON. I FINALLY HEARD IT.

And I realised what the problem was. It is an old story assumption about LDR repeating.

At first I was avoidant and my sp #1 mirrored it.

I constantly made excuses for their behaviour each time communication fluctuated. I CREATED THE EXCUSE.

#1. Oh he is avoidant because he loves me soo much it scares him

#2. Oh she just needs time and space to deal with her mental health

#3. Oh his job is an unusual one + gym is so tiring

With SP 2 I am the one who said “TAKE TIME IF YOU NEED” bc she was MIA for a few hours and by doing that I ended daily communication. And created the story where she needed time and space

I am hilariously in one of the funniest manifestations rn … I have got #3 guy saying he wants to marry me .. he is gonna fly across oceans for me (those were stuff I affirmed for #1)

YET COMMUNICATION ????

I realized what I need to do based on some of the success stories I’ve read here … someone said “I engaged with sp like normal… not asking him for anything anymore. I let it be.. until everything shifted”

1. I stop trying to get somethjng from them.
2. Assume what I want will unfold
3. Assume that HE wants and needs communication with ME. Because his routine is sooo meaningless and rootless out conversations are the highlight of HIS day and the light HE seeks.
4. I am the prize and I AM THEIR DREAM. I am their goal. NOT VICE VERSA.

I LITERALLY AM HIS DREAM GIRL. He has wanted me since the 2000s!!!!!! So OFC he wants to talk to me lmfao

I AM SO DONE WITH THIS. IT WILL SHIFT.

I have crashed out and cried multiples times this year but now I see this completely differently. Like a skill I’m gonna master. Like a programming I’m going to change. Not emotionally but technically.

And that honestly sounds fun.