my situation
this is genuinely starting to get exhausting i’ve been with my bf for about a year now things haven’t been easy. it’s like im constantly checking to see if i actually find him attractive or scan others in public to see if i found them more attractive. and i worry that i don’t actually love him and it’s a fear of being alone. and i’ve ended things before but when i end things i get even more anxious and i miss him but then when things start again it’s like i push him away. and the other day he started bringing up the future and i literally started crying because it’s so triggering for me when the future gets brought up because i just want to push him away. he’s so perfect in every way he treats me amazing but it’s like idk if it’s the attraction aspect or that it’s just isn’t right. atp idek what to do anymore