u/FormerHusband122

How much suffering do I owe a mother who has never cared about my suffering? How much suffering do I owe a mother who continues to disrespect me and violate my boundaries? How much suffering do I owe her when she is unrepentant over the horrific and atrocious crimes she subjected us to when we were kids? The psychological abuse. The unbearable guilt trips. The deception and lying to cops. What do I owe her? If I walk away from her, it’s essentially abandonment. And it means my sister, who suffered the same as I did at the hand of my mother and yet denies it and continues to kill herself and service of my mom’s needs, gets the whole load.

I (48m) had to walk away from my mother. The woman killed my childhood: grooming, shaming, coercion, manipulation, verbal abuse, violence, criminal activity. All my life she has disrespected me and never shown any remorse or repentance for the lifelong damage she has caused. And so now, I have cut her off--not just relationally, but financially. I'm done with her in every literal sense. This is the right thing to do? So why do I feel like complete shit? Why do I feel like the world's worst scumbag? Why does my diaphragm ache over this?